living in the now

Still rambling about running. Sometimes other things.

August things.

Hot.

A foggy run.

A few “cool” runs.

Humid.

And one crazy storm.

I’m ready to leave August behind - it wasn’t horrible, it wasn’t great, but when I keep it in perspective, it was definitely one of the best summer months I’ve had since 2015.

So no complaints from me heading in September …

No. 1276

With every run, I think I’m going to come back and blog about so many things … but I really just run out of time and energy to pound out my thoughts on a keyboard.

I’m just fine getting through Richmond Marathon like this …

KEEPING THINGS IN PERSPECTIVE

I feel like I should be running more, but this month will end up being the second highest mileage month of the year, far exceeding what I did in January and February this year when I was prepping for Blue Ridge.

HEAT, HUMIDITY AND OTHER LONG RUN BATTLES

My long run the week before last was TERRIBLE. So many things just seemed to collapse at once, so I stopped my planned 13-14 miler at 10 miles. Nothing wrong with stopping at this point in my training.

This past weekend’s run was much better, but then I ventured off to a neighborhood with some big-time hills I wasn’t expecting. I got to 12 miles and felt like I hit a wall.

It’s a battle I face as I continue to build my endurance for several years of not running much due to my injuries.

GOAL?

I don’t have a goal time for the Richmond Marathon, but I’m starting to think I should come up with something.

WHAT I’M LISTENING TO

I have gotten overly hooked on a “live” playlist that I just keep adding to. It’s drawing some emotions while I run that I haven’t felt in a long time.

Here' are a couple of my recent favorites:

That’s all for now … let’s get to September!

Pieces of finding peace

At various points in my 15 years of running, I’ve set some pretty stringent goals. Whether it was a PR in a 5K or breaking 4 hours in a marathon, I had many points of extreme focus.

The results were always extremely rewarding, but in hindsight, I don’t think I ever took the appropriate time to soak in the moments and enjoy what was happening at the time.

The patterns were very much: goal set/broke/missed, take a week or two to not worry about goals, then move on to the next thing. That’s pretty typical for a running, and it’s probably a mind frame that I will always have.

But now it’s different.

Serious injuries not only derailed me physically, but it messed me up mentally. I’ve battled back physically in the past 20 months, but it’s only been until recently that I realized how much my mind was broken.

I was going through the motions of getting back to some amazing milestones. I never, ever imagined I’d finish the Blue Ridge Marathon and even thinking about doing it again (check out HERE on some news about the 2020 race!)

But while going through those motions, I was lacking EMOTION.

This summer, though, I am finding a few feeling with running that I don’t really remember having … PEACE.

It’s difficult to explain, but stringing together runs that don’t make me feel terrible, running at different times of the day, being more observant, running more than I have in a few years, cross training, filtering out a lot of noise on social media … it all adds up.

And now as I look ahead to the Richmond Marathon and beyond, my goals have to focus on this new feeling.

There is no end game with “peace.” I also know that this feeling could change tomorrow so that’s why it’s important for me to embrace this moment.

But right now I feel refocused and refreshed even though I didn’t need it. And that’s a pretty amazing feeling to have in the middle of summer running …

It's MY life

For a while now, I’ve been filtering out the noise when it comes to running. I’ve stopped listening to cliche comments, I’ve avoided arguing and I’ve focused on doing my own thing.

Yesterday’s run, which was using my “LIVE” playlist with an unbelievable range of live songs across many genres, was filled with songs that drew a lot of emotion and thoughts from from me and re-emphasised that all my thoughts and actions are the best thing for me.

The song that really got me going and focused on my final few miles was a song I’ve probably never listened to on a run.

It was Bon Jovi’s “It’s My Life” … Yes, a Bon Jovi song got me to run my best and realize that what I have going on with running right now should apply to more of my life.

Still feeling 'new'

By the numbers, July was a really good month - 80.8 miles was the second most miles in a month this year, it was nearly as many miles as the past two Julys combined and I had small increases every week in the month.

But for some reason, I feel like I could have done more. While I didn't let the weather win, the heat beat me down sometimes when it shouldn't have.

I actually felt better on my long runs than just about any point this past winter - it's the shorter runs that I need to work on.

I'm discovering how much I need to hydrate before, during and after a run so that I'm not so miserable at various points during the week.

I also need to find more time to get in longer runs during the week so I can increase my overall mileage in August. I did get in 6 miles today for the final run of the month, but that needs to be the norm, not the exception.

I've commented in several social media posts how much running feels "new" to me this year. I've missed these feelings of highs and lows so much, and that roller coaster ride is hard to get used to.

It's not always great, and that's a good thing.

Now it's on to August as I set my sights on more running and hitting (hopefully) triple digits with my monthly mileage, along with long runs that I didn't even get to when I was training for the Blue Ridge Marathon.

I just need to focus on doing my own thing and it will happen ...