living in the now

Still rambling about running. Sometimes other things.

Accepting my failures

In the past few years, July has typically been one of my best months, both in terms of how I feel about where things are heading and with total running mileage. This month, though, reminds me more of how I often feel in April or May when I’m taking some down time or figuring out what’s next.

This July has consisted of 3 stages: the first few days were awesome, complete with a decent 5k; then I had a week where I felt like my running world was falling apart; in the past week I’ve hit this acceptance stage of knowing I’m not going to hit my goals I set for myself this month and am finally looking forward to what’s ahead.

Being honest and accepting that I thought I was ready for July to be different June is leading to a nice closing. When I add up the numbers in a few days, I’ll be WAY short of my running mileage goal and I doubt I’ll hit my weight goal; I am, however, focused on hitting my mileage goal for the bike.

I feel determined to have at least a 33.3% success rate before I set August goals.

As for those 13 goals for the year, I’m still focused on those too, but I wish I wouldn’t have locked myself into some of them. I’m not going to let myself worry about what may or may not happen with those right now … I just want to get them done.

My self-pity party has been an experience like no other -- and I think I've had one too many posts about it -- but I’m glad it’s over.