living in the now

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OK January, let's do this

I often wonder why why we like to measure our lives by year standards, but if you fail in January, you usually just don't make a change. If you succeed in January, you still have to put a lot of effort into February. Then change will happen.

I'm always about thinking about and making efforts to declutter, both with stuff and things on my mind ... it's a continuous thing, but it's always renewed around this time of year.

So what will make these coming months different? Writing goals down again. Blogging about them. Putting them on Facebook. Something that helps me be held accountable.

On several different years, I've made an effort to have three goals a month. One year it was perfect; other times it's pretty much been a disaster.

For 2019, my goal is to make one goal a month, both with running and at home. Perhaps other goals will be a part of those bigger goals, but trying for three isn't appealing anymore, nor is it sometimes realistic to do things that are satisfying enough to do three things.

I think sometimes these goals need to be BIG. Sometimes it can be as simple as crossing the finish line of a race. Or maybe there's a particular room in the house that needs cleaning/decluttering and it would only take a few hours of effort ... there don't have to be any "rules" with this other than what I want to do. 

I just want to get to the end of this year and look back on this post and feel satisfied with 2019.

As I said in my last post, I'm doing my own thing this year, which was a theme that developed throughout 2018.

So for January, my home goal is to clean out my attic. Oddly enough, doing this is going to briefly cause more clutter, but in a couple of months, so much will be gone.

And as for running, I want to get my long run back to 10 miles by the end of the month.

So January … let’s go! Let’s live life day by day, week by week, and then month by month.

Best time to run? Any time.

When I chose a year and a half ago to return to my career roots, I knew I was in for a wild ride. What I didn't quite expect, though, was my schedule being crazy and always changing. 

Starting next week -- and most likely lasting through summer -- I'll be working a really early shift, going in at 5 a.m. every day. I've worked this shift a couple of times a week quite a bit, and it's not nearly as bad as it sounds. 

It's just really easy to be extremely tired when the end of the day rolls around. 

So when it comes to running I'm going to be faced with having to run at my all-time least favorite time of the day -- mid-afternoon. 

But how bad is that, really? When I had a job six years ago when I ran in the middle of the day in crazy heat, I was in the best shape of my life and PRs started falling. After leaving that job, my running hasn't been anywhere close to that good. 

So I say bring on the summer and the heat and running at 3 p.m.  Just remind me to take water ... 

The new normal is somewhere

I knew that starting a new job was going to throw things off, but I didn't think it would REALLY throw me off. Shamrock training started great, but then it just kind of hit a big thud this week. 

My goal after Monday was simple: just get out there and run a few times during the week. Mileage, effort, pace, place ... none of that matter. I simply wanted to run a few times in the morning before week. 

Since that was my goal, it was successful. But this weekend a linger blister from my Thursday night basketball game prevented my long run. 

I could ramble on and on about how frustrating this week felt despite running a few times in the morning before work, but I won't. It happened. It's over. I don't have time to dwell on those things.

I have to get up in the morning and do better than I did last week. It's really that simple, I think, to find that new normal ... 

Connecting the Dots

Why am I mentally ready to train for a big race, and possibly another marathon, but I continuously feel like I'm struggling? While lack of sleep is a factor and not eating great is another, there's much more to it. 

I struggle with talking about this too candidly, but I have thought about my ups and downs of running in the past 10 years and am really starting to figure out why the lows seem so low. When I'm in a good spot in my career, running follows suit. When I'm struggling or in a mode of question things, running struggles. 

At least that's what it seems like. 

You can’t connect the dots looking forward you can only connect them looking backwards. So you have to trust that the dots will somehow connect in your future. You have to trust in something: your gut, destiny, life, karma, whatever. Because believing that the dots will connect down the road will give you the confidence to follow your heart, even when it leads you off the well worn path.
— Steve Jobs

The reality is quite the opposite and I've learned enough from my past that I think I can get out of this rut without getting in more of a funk.  

I do not stress out at my job -- I've taken enough personality and work-related tests to know that I effectively handle stress in positive ways. Running helps that. But in my day-to-day career when I'm pondering decisions and have a longer to-do list, I can't seem to put together a training schedule that eventually leads to weighing 10 pounds less, PRs and overall happiness. 

I don't dislike my job, but there is a lot going on with it right now that directly correlates with me not wanting to spend time thinking about running in the evenings and then, subsequently, getting up in the mornings and actually running. 

That begs the question of how to fix that -- it's almost as if I just have to sign up for a bigger race, set some kind of training plan and go for it. I've always said that when my running is going well, everything else in life makes sense. My problems are not work-related; they're running related. 

And when I fix those issues, my career will make more sense. It's at least worth a try again.

Now, though, which races should I go for ...